Sunday, May 26, 2019


Sorry for the bombardment of content as of late. Whether it's via my blog, my juggernaut podcast with Thomas or my regularly updated instagram account, I can't seem to stop sharing. But hey--that's what the internet's for, right? 

Here's what's new in my twisted world: 

I've been having a reoccurring (two times) nightmare about a mutant seal with no head. It can't do anything but thrash and flop, but still it terrifies me with its tortured desperation.

It's dark in this brain of mine, readers. Lynchian, almost. (Brotha Lynchian.) But when I share it with you, it takes a little bit of the darkness away, because now you have to deal with it, too.

Fortunately, my thoughts aren't all bad. Listen to this idea I had for an ashtray. It's just a regular ashtray, but along the side it says:  

"I'm dead without my coughing in the morning."

That's pretty funny, right? If you know anything about ceramics, hit me up.

As far as birding goes, I've got robin news, gosling news and grosbeak news. I'll start with the robin news, because Robin is the first-best superhero.

I was chilling at my computer the other day, trying to write a blog post while my roommate waltzed around the room examining things, yelling questions at me and telling me things that were wrong with the house, when something crazy-by-my-standards happened.

"Yo!" my roommate said. "Check out these birds!"

 I like to think of myself as a skeptic, but I can't resist bait like that.

He wasn't bullshitting. There were two birds--robins, it looked like--clearly visible through the back window, zipping around an unremarkable but still-kind-of-dope-in-my-opinion tree in my yard that my mom's been trying to get me to cut down. (Here's a picture of it, in case you want to judge for yourself.

) Breathlessly, I zipped off to my room to get my binoculars and Birds of Northern California guide, while my roommate did commentary.

"It looks like they're building a nest."

Sure enough, they were robins. The guide confirmed it. And they were ferrying tiny sticks to the tree.    

"Isn't that cute?" I said in an I'm-a-dumb-girl-who-likes-cute-stuff voice. "They just fell in love, and now they're building a new home together to raise a family in." It was kind of cute too, if you imagined them doing human things like smoking or getting drunk.  

But there was trouble in paradise. As the old birder saying goes: "joy is fleeting because jays are fast." The merry robins (<--this is a reference to the film MARY POPPINS, which has a robins nest in it) were soon interrupted by a very violent jay, who rapiered them mercilessly with his beak, bringing nest construction to a a literal screeching halt.

"Hey" said my roommate. "Do you want to get sandwiches?"

The next day, my mom brought up the tree.
"What's so special about it?" she said. "It's not contributing anything. All it's doing is robbin' you a view.
That jostled me. "Funny you should say that" I said. "There's a pair of robins that just moved in. They're building a nest there."
That jostled my mom. "No way" she said. "They wouldn't build a nest there. The branches are too sparse."
"It's true" I said.
"Show me" she said.

I didn't actually have a lot of faith that we were going to find evidence of the robins. The jay had scared them off, after all. I had that geared up as an excuse.

"Look low to the ground" my mom said. "A lot of people think that bird nests are going to be up high in the trees, but most of the time they're right at eye level."

We looked at eye level.

"Wow!" said my mom. "There's a nest!"

Somehow, the robins had finished it. It wasn't a beautiful nest, but it definitely wasn't a random pile of sticks. We checked for eggs, but there weren't any.

The day after that, I was in the yard with my neighbor, drinking beer.

"There's a nest in that tree" I said, pointing to the tree.

"There ain't no nest" said my neighbor. (He sounds southern when he's skeptical.) "The branches are too sparse."

"I'll show you" I said.

But the nest was gone.

"There was a nest" I said. "I swear it."

"There wasn't no nest" my neighbor said.

But there was a nest.

The gosling and grosbeak news will be faster, I promise. In fact, the grosbeak news is just that there have been grosbeaks at my mom's bird feeder recently, so we can check that off right there.

The gosling news is that the mailman was driving down my street recently, as he does, when a gosling darted in front of his car. The mailman slammed on the brakes and stepped out the truck to see what happened, and the gosling just kept sprinting down the street and quacking, like some kind of fucked up goose version of chicken little. My mom (who is popping up a lot in this post, I'm realizing) got involved, and so did one of the neightbors, and eventually they sheparded the gosling into the neighbors pool...where it was soon joined by ANOTHER GOSLING.

Fast forward a couple hours, and I'm hanging out with my mom at the creek, smoking a Gandalf-stlye pipe. She's filling me in on the gosling drama, and speak of the devil, there's a honking noise coming from the creek.

"That sounds like a gosling!" my mom says, and sure enough there's a third little gosling, swimming up the creek with all its might, looking like it's definitely going to get eaten today.

But the story ends happily for the goslings actually, because a third neighbor (sorry for making you keep track of all these characters) goes kayaking in the creek later on that day, and chances upon a gaggle of goslings--WERE THEY THE SAME? Who knows--swimming in a nice orderly line behind a fat mother goose. They looked grateful to be alive, he said. It looked like the ending of FULL METAL JACKET, he said.

Friday, April 12, 2019


i feel hesitance
for the present tense
the past passed past
too fast
and the future
is a computer

Thursday, March 28, 2019


You know how if you're really bad at hunting, you can go to one of those places where they just push a captive, tranquilized deer through a gate, right where your gun is aimed, and all you have to do is pull the trigger? You might've seen a King of the Hill episode about it once. Going to one of those places is the hunting equivilent of getting a hooker: it's frowned upon by the non-desperate, but sometimes you get so tired of nothing that your lust conquers your pride and you do it anyway.   
For episode 7 of DIAL B FOR BIRDER, Thomas and I decided to do the birding equivilent of that: we went birding at the bird store. The store was YOUR BASIC BIRD, in the Elmwood neighborhood of Berkeley, CA, and sure enough there were a ton of birds there. Red birds, green birds, white birds--the list could go on an on. They were all in cages, but that doesn't mean we didn't see em.
Satisfied, but somewhat guilty, we then decided to take a stroll around the serene, romantic Berkeley Marina...but I'm not going to tell you what we saw there, because I, like birds, am coy.  

Photos after the jump. 


Tuesday, March 19, 2019


Oh hi! How are things? I have a bunch of music to share with you, so let's get to it:

93 Feet of Smoke 

Oh man, I am VERY excited to talk about this guy! Easily one of my top 5 favorite artists out right now. 

This is the first song I ever heard by him and also a good jumping off point to see how much his music has evolved. The beat features a simple guitar loop over percussion that sounds like it's collapsing in on itself, but the real winner is the vocal effects, which sound completely bonkers. It sounds like he is buried in a coffin and yelling from a megaphone while also being waterboarded. 

My first impression of this song was "wow, bad mixing and mastering", but something about this one really gets under my skin, especially the bass guitar plucking @ around the 1:30 mark. What gets me is how the song builds from a simple guitar melody to a wall of noise and I LOVE how expressive his voice is, going from melancholy crooning to distorted screams. 93 has a level of musicality that is 10 steps above your average SoundCloud rapper with crushing drug problems.  

Wow I just realized there are like 6 more songs by this guy that I want to share, but let me just end it with this one for now. This is from his latest EP and the atmosphere of this beat is INSANE. If feels like you are bearing witness to the world ending in a very dramatic fashion. I also now know how to properly pronounce "Foyer", which is a big plus. All of his songs are about being a miserable piece of shit drug addict, so I really hope he is doing OK IRL.

Lil Narnia 

Lil Narnia is the answer to the question "how emo can emo rap go?" Turns out, very emo!

Oh man this song is an odd one and took me a long time to wrap my head around. The beat sounds like a downed power line; all jagged hi-hats with almost no low end. Listen for the bass in the beat, it's barely there! The guitars are dope, it sounds like a Deftones B-side that early 2000s teens would cry to. The fact that Lil Narnia looks like a craft beer and weed aficionado but has a high pitched emo voice will probably be the thing that sticks with most people and I too was definitely like 😮 when I first saw this. Major props to you if you can understand more than 20% of the lyrics. Embrace the unintelligibility as part of the aesthetic. 

The beat feels like an angel is playing a harp with a drum machine in the clouds for you (I am trying to avoid using the word "ethereal" lol). The chorus of this song is great: "thought we were humans/ but I was wrong/ things in pain is all we are" 😢 


I get a strong New Wave/Post-punk vibe from this song and love how the drums don't come in until the 1:58 mark. Am I veering too far away from rap music at this point? As a former big time metalhead it was always a constant point of contention on the internet about what subgenre a particular artist fell under. Like there would be real human beings who liked death metal, but not black metal and vice versa and they would get in long-winded internet arguments about how their favorite bands should be classified. It feels like this is something people are taking less and less seriously these days and the idea of aligning your personal brand with one particular subgenre of music seems preposterous in 2019. Artists freely meld together whatever music they want nowadays and we are better off because of it. I feel kind of sorry for all the Punk Dads out there still stuck listening to the same 3 albums by the Vandals or whatever 😕

Let's finish with your regular reminder that Bladee is still the greatest rapper out of this niche of music. Again, the atmosphere is key; the downtrodden beat matches Bladee's emotionless autotuned voice perfectly. An essential track for all of the Doomers out there. 

OK I have many more songs to share with you, but I will save it for next time! Thank you for reading, friends. Have a nice time out there and stay safe 😊

Thomas is a blogger, birder and sad music enthusiast living in Oakland, CA. 

Monday, March 11, 2019


Yeah yeah yeah....hiatus sorry long time do better. What you have to understand, fans, is that it is VERY, VERY  COLD in my house. (If you think I can put off blogging or uploading a podcast for a long time, you should see how long I can put off insulating a floor. Especially when it's cold.) My feet are cold and my computer is cold and my typing fingers are cold, and that's my excuse.
For this episode of the podcast--"episode 6"--Thomas and I went to an east bay birding location selected by Thomas: "Martin Luther King Jr. Regional Shoreline." The whole 10 minute drive over, Thomas was going on and on about how dope it was gonna be, and how many birds he'd heard were there. "It will be like nothing you've ever seen before," he said at one point. The episode before this one, if you can remember that far back, was the "zero birds, and I get poison oak" episode, so I was really hoping we'd knock it out of the park this time, to get things back on track. 
Did we knock it out of the park? 
Will Thomas and I be podcasting more frequently in the future? 
Will there be photos from our expedition after the jump?
Listen right here, or on iTunes or Stitcher, to find out! Expedition photos after the jump. 

Thursday, January 17, 2019


I took the "What Passion Of The Christ Character Are You?" quiz and got "Booing Villager."
I took the "What Cuss Word Are You?" quiz and got "Bitch-ass."
I took the "What Type Of Friend Are You?" quiz and got "Fat." 
I took the "What's Your Type?" quiz and got italic.
I took the "What Kind Of Owl Are You?" quiz and got "Spotted."
I took the "What Comic Strip Character Are You?" quiz and got fuckin' CATHY!!!! Shit!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 16, 2019

Monday, January 14, 2019


-Boring Hat of the Month is back! Please follow me so I can amass more followers than my mom, who is currently beating me by one follower. (I could unfollow her to catch up, but she posts such good photos!) What gives, Ma? Don't you know you're not allowed to BEAT YOUR CHILDREN anymore??

-The Buies Creek Astros, a minor league baseball team from North Carolina, has rebranded themselves as the Fayettville Woodpeckers, in honor of a beloved local bird known as the red-cockaded woodpecker. The new name was elected by local residents, who said that they admired the woodpecker for its looks, tenacity, and baseball-esque affection for BORING. 

-Welcome back, Nyquil510! The gang from the comment section missed you.

-What do you guys think about the movies and stuff that've been coming out? Here's what I think: SUSPIRIA (2018) is dope, Bud Smith's weekly column in The Nervous Breakdown is dope, and this "Letter of Recommendation" about Old English is dope. THE FAVOURITE (don't you just love leaning into that extra British syllable, when you say it out loud? I know I do!) is pretty dope, but the dopest Yorgos Lanthimos movie is THE KILLING OF A SACRED DEER. BIRD BOX, surprisingly, had something to do with birds, but was BAD. THE PANTY SYMPHONIC is dope.

-No One Dies Forever HQ was attacked by a bear the other night! This is true. It knocked down the company trash can, ate some of our trash, and then ran off into the woods to take a shit. He never tried to attack us or anything, but my roommate was so freaked out by the experience he ran right upstairs to the gun vault and put all of our honey in it.

-Birders from all over the country have driving down--"flocking," you might even say--to Los Angeles to catch a glimpse of the red-flanked bluetail, an extremely rare siberian bird that has mysteriously taken up residence in a hedge near the William Andrews Clark Memorial Library of UCLA. When asked to comment, birders and library-goers told reporters to "keep it down." 

Tuesday, December 11, 2018


for Ethan Coen

there once was a man from nantucket
whose dick was so long he could suck it
it was easy and fun 
but he longed for a son
as he spat his cum into a bucket

there was an old man from old hickory
who once showed his wrinkly old dick to me
inside those folds
was an army of molds
that could have led dixie to victory

a lady named katie just stated
the number of men she's fellated
it's so strikingly high 
it makes me want to cry   
i wish we weren't so closely related!

i destroyed the receipts and the playbill 
and my voice, as i lied, sounded stable
but again, i got caught   
cause i somehow forgot  
to wipe all of your shit off the table